Please wake me up from this nightmare

Hubby was with me when I got the diagnosis but we did not have a chance to really talk about it. We proceeded with the chores we had planned to do that day. We were not talking. We were both in shock!

Other than hubby, I informed my boss immediately without a thought. I probably  did that because I knew my work will be highly affected by my situation. 

I was back to work the next day after diagnosis. I have 4 more days to work before my scheduled trip back home to Baguio. I'm faced with a long list of things to accomplish at work and I need to pack stuff to bring home. 


In between doing my best to complete a mountain of tasks, I would remember.... I have cancer.... is it for real? is this really happening? 


I would ask myself whether I am dreaming. This could be a bad dream and I just needed to wake up.  Can somebody please wake me up from this nightmare?


We went home to Baguio to celebrate Mama's 70th birthday. I didn't know how to give this bad news to my family at this supposed happy moment. 


I had to. Because I did not know how to move on. 


"I sustain myself with the love of family."
- Maya Angelou


"Family is the most important thing in the world."
- Princess Diana